God is Good

Its been quite a while since I've written anything. I like to write on here...but I don't think people read it, so I don't really bother most of the time. And I haven't felt much inspiration lately...but I think I'm feeling a little bit tonight, even though I really should be packing my stuff so that it fits in my suitcase to go back to Arkansas.

This Christmas break has been wonderful and it has been hard. It was wonderful because I got to see my family at a long semester at school. I missed them so much and it was just so wonderful to get to spend time with them again. It was wonderful because I got to go to Colorado and spend time in my favorite homestate. :) I got to spend time with my precious cousins. It was wonderful because when we got to California I got to see my aunts, uncles, and cousins. I love them all so very much...my favorite people in the world. It was wonderful because I got to know Anna, Lukas' girlfriend, better. It was wonderful because I got to spend two Sundays at a Church that I wish I could go to regularly. It was wonderful because I got to spend time with my Grandma and Grandpa Keagy, something that I love to do! It was wonderful because I got to eat my mom's delicious food and I got to watch my favorite TV shows in the whole world every night. It was wonderful because school was the farthest thing from my mind and I was able to relax.

But it was also hard. It was hard because in the back of my mind I knew that I wasn't in Peru. It was hard because as I was anticipating it, I kept thinking, "I can't imagine how amazing it would feel right now if I was getting on an airplane this week and flying home." It was hard because I knew that at the end of the break I would be saying goodbye to my wonderful family. It was hard because we were packing up the farm house, a place that has held many joyful and many painful memories for me. It was hard because I saying goodbye to the last place that I have memories with my grandma in. It was hard because I didn't take as much advantage of my time with my family as I could have. It was hard because at 3:00 this morning, I woke up and said goodbye to my mom, dad, and Levi for an indefinite amount of time. It was hard because I don't know when I'm going to see them again. It was hard because it made me miss all of this more...it made me miss things that I could have if I was going to college closer to "home," or at least closer to the family taht I have here in California.

But God is good. He took what could have been a very very painful day and he gave me the gift of seeing one of my best friends from Peru, Josh. He provided for Lukas and I to spend 4 hours just hanging out with him and catching up on our lives. He allowed us to have quality time with Grandma and Grandpa tonight after dinner just talking. He provided reassurance at 3:30 this morning when I couldn't fall back asleep that its OK that my parents are on a different continent than I am and that I don't know when I will see them again: they have to go back to Peru so that they can serve God and I have to go to Arkansas so that I can serve God. He orchestrated everything so that I my brother and I can go to school together. He is SO good.

My heart hurts right now and my eyes are a bit swollen. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to my family and I ache to go home to Peru...but God is good. He is good.