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Yeah. He's still good.
So my very very few followers can attest to the fact that I have not blogged anything significant in a very long time. My most recent posts have basically been me lamenting about the problems in my life...in very vague ways. I have not shared anything specific or very personal. For that...I'm sorry.
I'm ready to share a little bit more, however, I apologize in advance if this blog simply leads to more confusion rather than clarification. My life hasn't exactly been easy during these last few months. After school ended last semester I went to California to live and work with my cousin. Being with my cousin was absolutely fantastic. Working in a california fruit packing shed was not. It was long, demanding hours of standing and not talking. Although a full day was eight hours, our average day was twelve. My feet and back hurt at the end of the day, and unfortunately, we always had to go back the next morning.
On top of this, I was trying to maintain relationships with friends not only from Jbu but also from Peru. With so much work, my time to spend on skype or on the phone was limited. One relationship in particular took much of time and energy, and I spent a lot of time trying to make sure that it was good. Because of the nature of that relationship, I worried more about it and probably devoted too much time to analyzing every little thing that happened or was said, or not said. It took a lot of emotional energy.
Toward the end of the summer, that relationship changed and it hurt a lot. It still does. But God has a plan. I know this completely.
Anyways, I was blessed to spend several weeks in Siloam Springs in August. I spent lots of time with my JBU family, and with my own family, since they are living in Arkansas for the year. It was a nice time to reconnect with everybody and do the stuff "we do" before leaving them once again for three months. As any of you who have known me for a while know, goodbyes kill me. I have had to say them at least once a year for as long as I can remember but they have never gotten any easier. Saying goodbye to the people that I had been counting down for months to see again was very hard and I'll admit that I, once again, am too worried about things changing while I'm gone. (Yes, I know I need to learn not to worry. God is trying to teach me...and I'm trying to learn. But if I'm honest I have to say I haven't mastered it yet). Anyways, I told them all goodbye and flew halfway across the world to the absolutely beautiful country in which I'm a "tourist" for the next three months: Ireland.
This has already been such an incredible experience. Ireland is so beautiful and the people here are so nice. Irish people have such sweet personalities and their sense of humor is fantastic. I've thoroughly enjoyed my time here. The people I'm living with are also so very incredible. I couldn't have asked for a better group. We really enjoy each other and living in the manor together is so much fun. Classes started yesterday...but I'm not gonna lie, we have it better here than at JBU :). For example, Irish Art and Culture yesterday meant going to a museum and actually seeing the original artwork. In two weeks, it means going to Dublin to see some other exhibits. Don't worry though, we do real work too. And each class is three hours long...which is a long time, not gonna lie. Well, its almost time for lunch (which is going to be DELICIOUS, because Sarah is the most incredible cook ever), so I need to stop writing.
I just want to end saying life has not been simple or easy. Its been hard. But God is good. I'm so blessed. He is so good.
I'm ready to share a little bit more, however, I apologize in advance if this blog simply leads to more confusion rather than clarification. My life hasn't exactly been easy during these last few months. After school ended last semester I went to California to live and work with my cousin. Being with my cousin was absolutely fantastic. Working in a california fruit packing shed was not. It was long, demanding hours of standing and not talking. Although a full day was eight hours, our average day was twelve. My feet and back hurt at the end of the day, and unfortunately, we always had to go back the next morning.
On top of this, I was trying to maintain relationships with friends not only from Jbu but also from Peru. With so much work, my time to spend on skype or on the phone was limited. One relationship in particular took much of time and energy, and I spent a lot of time trying to make sure that it was good. Because of the nature of that relationship, I worried more about it and probably devoted too much time to analyzing every little thing that happened or was said, or not said. It took a lot of emotional energy.
Toward the end of the summer, that relationship changed and it hurt a lot. It still does. But God has a plan. I know this completely.
Anyways, I was blessed to spend several weeks in Siloam Springs in August. I spent lots of time with my JBU family, and with my own family, since they are living in Arkansas for the year. It was a nice time to reconnect with everybody and do the stuff "we do" before leaving them once again for three months. As any of you who have known me for a while know, goodbyes kill me. I have had to say them at least once a year for as long as I can remember but they have never gotten any easier. Saying goodbye to the people that I had been counting down for months to see again was very hard and I'll admit that I, once again, am too worried about things changing while I'm gone. (Yes, I know I need to learn not to worry. God is trying to teach me...and I'm trying to learn. But if I'm honest I have to say I haven't mastered it yet). Anyways, I told them all goodbye and flew halfway across the world to the absolutely beautiful country in which I'm a "tourist" for the next three months: Ireland.
This has already been such an incredible experience. Ireland is so beautiful and the people here are so nice. Irish people have such sweet personalities and their sense of humor is fantastic. I've thoroughly enjoyed my time here. The people I'm living with are also so very incredible. I couldn't have asked for a better group. We really enjoy each other and living in the manor together is so much fun. Classes started yesterday...but I'm not gonna lie, we have it better here than at JBU :). For example, Irish Art and Culture yesterday meant going to a museum and actually seeing the original artwork. In two weeks, it means going to Dublin to see some other exhibits. Don't worry though, we do real work too. And each class is three hours long...which is a long time, not gonna lie. Well, its almost time for lunch (which is going to be DELICIOUS, because Sarah is the most incredible cook ever), so I need to stop writing.
I just want to end saying life has not been simple or easy. Its been hard. But God is good. I'm so blessed. He is so good.
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