I feel like I'm losing myself. Yes, that sounds dramatic and in all honesty I don't know if it really is dramatic or not. Let me explain a little bit further.
In Peru, I was involved in many things: praise band, student council, BLOOM, youth group leadership, teacher's aid, etc. I loved doing so much. I loved the contact that it gave me with other people. I loved walking down the hallways at school saying hi to people, or being the recipient of a hug from the middle school girls. I was never timid or shy when it came to introducing myself to people and welcoming the new kid.
Now I am the new kid, along with several hundred other freshmen. I am new to this school, and this school is new to me. I am completely out of my comfort zone, and it is throwing me off. No longer do I find it easy to start a conversation with somebody I don't know. I want to introduce myself to people and get to know them, but its like I'm always waiting for them to make the first move and they don't. What has happened to the real Lynea? The one who loved talking to everybody at youth group...is she gone? I don't think so...but how long will it take for her to emerge again? I miss her.
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